Higher Power, please give me the willingness and the ability to pause
the mental chatter, quiet myself and seek your guidance and your will.
I need a rest from my mental obsession with trying to
control the future. It is exhausting to try and “protect” everyone from
every possible dangerous scenario or problem they may encounter in their
individual futures. It is exhausting to attempt to take on the Higher Power’s job
and believe that it is my responsibility.
If God and I worked in the same office, I would constantly
be “forgetting” where my desk is and sitting down at God’s work station.
(Annoying? I would like to think, God finds it endearing.) “God, could
you at least just sit on half of your office chair, while I squeeze in on the
other half?! No? OK then how about if I drag my chair over and
wedge it right next to yours so I can peer over your shoulder? I just
want to make sure you get this resolved correctly. I am not saying that I
know better than you do, I just am afraid that you are taking too much time to
get this taken care of. I am only trying to be helpful. You don’t need
my help?! Ohh… Well…. Yes, I do have other things I could do.
Like…well…. OK yes, brush my teeth, take a shower, clean up the clutter
around my area, and do some other self-care. I guess I could go for a
walk. Maybe enjoy the day. OK then. Thank you. Glad we
had this talk.”
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